Over the last year or so I have developed a habit of entering into a situation or conversation expecting a negative response or reaction which dictates the way I carry or present myself. I have always somewhat been that way but it has gotten worse as I get older. I don't know if it's because I've gotten more cynical with age or that the thought of reality and mortality is starting to set in so I'm subconsciously tying to stop myself from wasting any time on potential conversations or relationships that go no where.
I find that this is a self destructive behaviour and only leads to bitterness and eventual isolation which no one really wants. All though I do believe that it is hard to form connections or real relationships on any kind of deeper level these days, that doesn't mean I need to throw in the towel and stop trying. Making one friend or having one nice conversation out of 100 potentially bad ones are not horrible odds and when it does happen it feels that much more rewarding and if it doesn't happen then it doesn't effect you because you have remained positive.
Say what you want and do want you want to do expecting that it will be received positively and with open arms. Obviously know your limitations and have a social filter to some degree but have conviction without aggression and speak hoping to fall on open ears. Don't shy away because you feel that no one is paying attention or listening, in fact make a point of being open and honest about it and just laugh it off because it will not effect you or your positivity. Be light on your feet, even when your shoulders are heavy because it will eat away a you and destroy you until you're simply going through the motions.
Share yourself expecting positivity.
Happy New Years.